Cameron: "Sorry I don't know either why don't u have a profile picture up of yourself. Don't u like yourself"
(about maybe 20-30 min. passed - i think)
me:
No. I have this picture up cause I like Tokyo Ghoul, not because I do
not like myself and also because I do not like to put my real pictures
to just anyone anymore because the world really is a real cruel place
and I already have enough of my stuff in the wrong hands as it is.
Haven't u ever heard of scammers and/or cyber bullies who take personal
information and use it to harm people before? Well this is basically my
situation here
(a sight pause is in between)
me: They
are costing me money. I do not want to put up my picture and then they
get there and they put all kinds of mean statements that are very
demeaning toward me. It is not "maybe they won't" No they will. They did
break me though Cameron, I do want them to know that. I am broken now.
They won just like they always said they would. I just wish somehow I
had not been disobedient as a kid and would have taken them seriously,
otherwise, i mean...
Cameron:( well, you have no picture up of yourself, nor even a profile. Don't u like urself
me:
(9 min. later) They are trying to make a complete fool of me like
that.Please. No. I do not want to look like a fool. I just was dumb as a
kid, and I thought it was a game. They are the real deal though, and I
know that was right. I still do love and like them for that though, but
all I can do it is from afar before they will indeed strike me down
again.
Cameron: (no response)
me: (5 min. later) I
just didn't know any better. That's no excuse, I understand that now. I
respect them now, okay Cameron? Just, I am no more playing around. They
are in control, but I swear if I do put my real picture out there they
will laugh at me. They already laugh at me enough about everything else.
I do not want them to laugh at my appearance too. That would kill me.
Who wouldn't be killed by that?
Cameron: (again, no response).
me: I
mean I am so insignificant to them. I know that now. I was thinking,
"Oh yeah... yeah, they are just fooling around, they don't mean that..
hahaa.. they will change, and/or I can win them over now cause I am
doing this and that now! This will get them to like me, and then that
way they will let me just be around them at least." - 2 min. later (just now) -
but whatever, alright? I ain't playing or messing with them like that
again. I am not even a jokester or even a person who mess with people
either. shit, I just liked them cause I thought they were having fun and
I took it too far like I do everything else! Yes, this is my fault and I
take full responsibility!
Because I suck as a human being and also because I want to die again now.
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